.10 pm.

it's 10 pm
i'm at work
and i'm thinking.
this post will be pictureless
i just wanted to write down a few feelings that i've had recently
i can't believe how different i feel since becoming a mom
i'm more calm (after the anxiety of a newborn wore off, of course)
i'm more observant of life, of my surroundings
i'm more happy
i'm more reverent (does that make sense??)
i'm more content.. maybe that's what i've been getting at..

when wy was first born, i was sure i'd made a mistake..being a mom was NOT for me. i thought maybe heavenly father had been trying to tell me that with our infertility ride.. that i was not meant to be a mom. now, i realize that having a baby makes you feel like that, maybe because the responsibility is so great that we can only take in little bits at a time. i'm still taking baby steps into the motherhood thing. i really don't look too far into the future because thinking about teaching our little guy about EVERYTHING he needs to know is just too overwhelming.. and let's be honest, i'm still learning about life myself. sometimes i think wyatt was such a blessing to us, and not so much us to him.. but he's a little miracle and i'm soaking in every second. i can now say, i know i'm supposed to be a mommy, i'm just still trying to take in all that it entails. thank you, wyatt, for bringing me more joy than i deserve. we are truly blessed, beyond measure.